You Have to Have a Goal

Part of sticking with a change is to develop goals around it – easily-obtained, bite-sized goals – and work toward them.

I’ve always been a ‘big picture’ sort of person, where I’d look at where I want to be and kind of meander my way in that direction. I lost my way over the past several years as what little planning I’d been doing easily came unraveled because I’m easy to distract, and I’m more likely to do what other people want me to do instead of what I want to do.

A lot of people would tell you otherwise. Those people don’t know me as well as they think.

My ultimate goal is to be completely independent. This clashes a bit with my other goal of moving in with my boyfriend and actually having a life with him beyond the computer screen, I guess, but to get THERE I need to actually do the thing HERE. Until I’m independent, I have no way of scraping together the money to get over to even meet him. I’ll never be mentally healthy if I don’t gain my independence. Independence means getting to see change, means making more change and making waves so that I don’t reach old age and go, “Wow, look at all the crap I could have done and didn’t do because I was scared.”

My short-term goal is to bring in enough money to pay my bills by the end of February. I want to be able to say “I made $1,000 in the month of February because I buckled down and did the thing”, and then I want to further that by making $3,000 per month by the end of 2016. That would enable me to pay down my credit card (completely), pay off my car, and possibly pay off what’s left of my OSAP debt.

If I’m pulling this off by July 2016, then I won’t have to go back to school (again) for Medical Office Admin as I was originally planning, and I can concentrate my efforts on my writing career. I’ll be able to afford an apartment somewhere I’ve never actually been before (maybe), and experience a new place.

It would be nice to actually be able to move out on my own and feel like I’ve succeeded at becoming an adult.